A few answers

Hello,
my last posts resulted in quite a lot questions I got inworld. Actually, I was quite sure I'll write this blog for me, my sis and one or maybe two friends. Looks like I was wrong with that and more than just four people read my blog. First, I really have to apologize for not writing very much here. I never got comments and was under the impression that nobody's really interested in this blog and just used it to amuse myself. Sorry again folks, I'll try to update the blog more often and write e bit more about myself.
Now I'd like to ask you to write any new questions about the suit or the isolation here in my comments. I'm in my Iso-Suit now and can't read or answer your IMs `till I'm free again.
First and most important, I'd like to give you some background information about my Isolation and why I'm doing this. A few weeks ago I've read about a short-story called "Eudeamon" and was intrigued. The story was written by Erika, or Evil Dolly, and you can download it here on Erikas blog. I really, really urge you read this story. If you're into Latex, bondage, long-term isolation you're going to love it. But this story is so much more than that. It's about being different than the rest of the society you're living in, about being shunned by society but finding acceptance and true love and happiness. It's most definitely not an erotic novel. Only a few pages are sexual or erotic. It's not a book about bondage or a fetish. It's not a book you will read and don't need to contemplate about it. It's not a story that doesn't affect you. It's not what most people consider "light" or "easy" reading. I'm a book-worm and spend many hours a week reading books, but not ONE of the hundreds (well, more like thousands) of books I've read in my life made me that thoughtful. The book is like an emotional rollercoaster-ride and it WILL affect you deeply. I downloaded the book in the evening and wanted to read a few pages before going to sleep. The story got me and sucked me right into it. I couldn't stop until I've read every single page. And than I was unable to sleep for the rest of the night because I had to think about it. I'm an emotional person, I'll admit to that freely, but I'm not one of the people who can cry during a movie or while reading a book, at least not until I've read Eudeamon. I'm not going to philosophize here and draw parallels from the story to our society. Do that for yourselves. I'm not telling you more about my emotions, how much I've cried, how often I was terrified and shocked, how lonely I've felt and how hard it was to continue reading sometimes. Erika has a way to immerse you in the story, make you feel like Katrina, make you wish and dread to be Katrina. After I've read the story, I wrote Erika emails (just a few thousand words)and thanked her for this wonderful story and told her about my emotions while reading it. I'm not going to tell you much more about it here on my blog. Read the story and judge for yourselves. All I want to tell you is that this story changed me and my view to the world, it affected me like very few things before in my whole life. It's more than just a story for me and it affects me more and more the more I'll think about it. Call it an obsession, call it religion or stupidity, I'm happy that this short-story changed my life. Read it and maybe you'll understand why I can't wait to try Marines Banishment Project and at the same time feel horrible fear for myself and the person I am right now.
So much for Eudeamon, the nest question is about why in hell, cute and nice Kathi is going into isolation. ;) This Iso-Suit is the next best experience I can have until Marine has finished her Banesuit and her Banishment Program. You've read how I was affected by the short-story, so you'll understand that I NEED to try the Banesuit as soon as possible. But until I can go into Banishment, I'll have the opportunity to try a "light"-version of it. No custodian (read the story, if you want to know what that is), no Eudeamon and I can choose to use a good friend as keyholder. That makes this first isolation easier and less frustrating for myself. Of course, sometimes, I'd love to have a very, very harsh and restrictive keyholder who acts like a human custodian and isn't nice with me, who doesn't chat with me except for a few commands and makes the isolation as intense and restrictive as possible for me. I'll do this when I go into Banishment, but for now, I'd like to learn and see how the isolation affects me. Like I said before, I know this will change me and on the one hand I need to find out how it does and on the other hand I fear loosing myself. Now I'll get a less intense experience before doing the real stuff. Maybe I'm cautious, maybe I'm a coward, but I feel, this is the best for me.
Wish me luck.

More about my first isolation-experience soon on this blog.

Kathi