Sables helmet is for sale!!

I know many of you have waited for it. Sable has finished testing her helmet and put it for sale now. She uses the Scorpion vendors and for only 500 L$ it's a bargain. So hurry out and grab one of them, NOW! You an get them here at Maya Shenleys Scorpion Products mainstore in Murphy or at one of her other vendors, for example at the Little Store of Kink. Oh... and by the way, when you're at the vendor, why don't you grab one of Mayas Gasmasks or Gags? They're just wonderful and with only 250 L$ each another bargain and worth every single Linden$.
I had the wonderful opportunity of testing out the release version of the helmet for about 7 hours (That's a lovely story I'm going to write about when I've got enough time, maybe during the weekend. I don't want to rush that up, it would be a great disservice to my great, wonderful and wicked custodian Maya Shenley and all the time and work she put herself into for making these seven hours so much fun for me. Thanks again, Maya, you're great and I'll be back soon again for a longer isolation.) and I've got to say it's just great! It's got everything built in a Bane could wish, but I'm not going to spoil the fun for you by telling you about it. So, why are you still here reading me babble about the helmet, buy one, let yourself get locked up by your custodian of choice and enjoy some relaxing time in isolation.


That's me in front of the vendor at Maya Shelleys Mainstore in Murphy.

Daris Haus is NOT closing shop

Very short notice:
Well, looks like all our begging and pleading worked. Dari decided to keep her shop open and continue to provide us all with her wonderful products. She even announced today another update for her gags. Go read her blog if you to know more about this update and a new idea for her armbinders.
To sum it all up, I can just say that I'm overjoyed about her decision to keep her shop open. It would have been really sad if she'd been forced out of business by her own customers and we all would have lost one of SLs best creators.

Privacy anyone??? or Another rant (I'm getting used to ranting today, I think)

I think it happened to everyone who has rented or bought a house or apartment in SL more than once. You're coming home from an extremely exhausting shopping trip (or whatever you do most of the time in SL), gleefully awaiting to unpack all your new, shiny shoes, clothes and ...uhhh.... cuffs, wanting nothing more than to hop onto the next posing stand to fit all these new prims to your AV. Yeah, yeah, I’m crazy, addicted and my overly inflated inventory is the cause of SLs huge database problems. Tell me something I don’t know! Anyway….. you come home and what do you see? Somebody completely unknown, some weird alien in crappy noob clothing is sitting on your couch, or clicking everywhere, hopping onto each and every poseball in your house. You look around, maybe you TPed to the wrong landmark, into a friend’s home or wherever, but nooo….. this weird alien is sitting right in your living room. Maybe you forgot to lock the door? Let’s have a quick check. Nope, of course not. The door is locked as always. And when you try to talk nicely to your intruder he/she/IT? just TPs out of the area, most likely to bug somebody else. And that’s unfortunately the best case scenario. A few weeks ago, I didn’t have my new castle in my 1640 prim parcel yet, and instead was the proud tenant of a smaller parcel for my castle and a nice apartment in a nifty tower. The apartment was actually only one room, but it came with 300 prims, exactly what I needed for my personal little dungeon with all these prim heavy toys and instruments of torture. I was with a friend of mine and had just finished giving her a good little spanking. In fact, I just released her from this very nice cross I bought a few days before, when suddenly this weirdo sat on my throne in the corner of the room. Can you believe that? MY throne. My THRONE!! I knew she couldn’t have entered through the door; it has an access list and is always locked. TPing wasn’t possible, because if you didn’t set your home to your apartment you could only TP to a central location at the base of the tower. You all know how she got into my apartment. By changing the angle of the camera and sitting on the next best poseball, which happend to be on my throne. Normally I can be quite bitchy if somebody sits on my throne, but you never know how these creepy intruders respond if you start screaming and ranting. So I asked quite nicely why she entered my apartment. I got no answer from her and instead she got up from my throne and tried the cross instead. You know, I was kind of tempted to get my whip out once again, but my hand was a bit tired at that moment, because the previous spanking was a long one and had tired me a bit. So I told her that it is not the best way to make friends in SL by intruding their privacy, bypassing locked doors and testing out the toys and furniture of the owner of the apartment. Don’t get me wrong now. I was really nice and talked to her in a friendly way, although I was a bit pissed that the session with my friend had been interrupted. And what did she answer me? She said: ”I’m not here to make friends, I’m just a bitch looking for fun.” Yeah, sure, unnecessary to say that she was a banned bitch a few seconds later, but can you believe that? And I’m not making that up! That has happened and with exactly these words. She was the very first person I banned from my property in SL. I always do bans now as last resort, but yuck, I didn’t want to be with her in a room any longer, she was obviously brain-injured and maybe her ignorance was infectious! Had to get rid of her, take a hot bath and get a vaccine against brain-cancer! Ok, ok, before the bath I had a long talk with my friend in my bed. That was one of my worst case scenarios I had to experience in SL. Uhh... just to make sure that everone gets that right, the part with the weirdo in my dungeon was the worst case scenario, not the part with me and my friend in bed, that was actually a best case scenario. :)
I’m used to newbies storming in and checking everything out. SL is new to them; they don’t know many people and want to look around. Ok, that’s no biggie. When I’ve got enough time I chat a bit with them, try to help them, answer their questions and all that stuff, I even give them a tour of my house and when they see the play room most of them flee in panic. :) Why don’t I erect ban lines around my house, let only people on my access list on my property, some of you may ask. Simple, I hate running around and banging every few seconds against an invisible wall with only a red warning lettering on it. Gives me a headache. I think these walls are really, really annoying and they wouldn’t be necessary if people would try to use common sense, act civilized and respect the privacy of other residents. I know, I know, that will never happen, but let a girl have her dreams and hopes.
But boys and girls out there, please use your brains from time to time. It shouldn’t be that hard to activate these poor little few cells you have in your head now and then. Yes, I'm talking about you weirdoes out there. Get a grip and start to respect other people’s privacy. For example, if you are in bed with your friend (assuming you weirdos have friends in SL), would you like having an audience around you, commenting every position you assume, analyzing every word you whisper in the ear of your love? Would you like it if they throw popcorn at you when it's not getting messy fast enough for them? Don't get me wrong, nothing against a bit of voyeurism, but I'm the one who decides when and where I want that. In real life you don’t break into other peoples homes every day, do you? I certainly hope not. Or soon you’ll have to abstain from SL for a long, long time, because I don’t think you get an internet connection in prison. If you don’t do it in RL, maybe you shouldn’t do it in SL. Think about it.
That was enough ranting for today. In fact, I'm a bit tired now from writing two ranting posts in only one day and I need my sleep. I wish you all much fun in SL. See you next week or whenever I have the time for another entry.

Dari's Haus is closing shop

Well...I still can't believe it. Yesterday Darien Caldwell, creator of SL's finest gags, armbinders and collars announced that she will close her shop soon. After more than one year of providing the community with her products and shortly after announcing that she'll take a break because she feels burned out and needs to refresh her batteries that came as a shock - not one of the good ones her collars emit when I'm being naughty again - but one of the really bad ones.
You may ask yourself why Dari, one of the very few extremely talented creators in SL decided to close her shop. It's quite simple. The answer is that Dari was forced to make that decision because there are just too many assholes in SL. Thanks a bunch, boys and girls, for forcing her to stop selling her products. Obviously there are certain people in SL who are either too stupid or too lazy to read notecards and start bothering, complaining and bitching to the creators of their products if something doesn’t work because of their own inability and/or stupidity. Seriously people, if you are so damned stupid that you can’t even understand these notecards you should consider leaving SL and going back to school and learn to read. The notes Dari provides with her products are among the best instruction manuals I’ve ever seen and that includes manuals for many RL-products.
And there’s Dari’s support group for her products, too. If you have a question there’s a really high possibility that it will be answered there. Of course, only if you ask a question and don’t just start bitching around there. The group is for asking questions and not for constant complaints and rants.
When I had questions with an update for one of my collars once (some probs with the AO) I sent Dari an IM and I must say that she was not only totally nice and helpful, she took much, much time to help me sort my problems. The support she gave me was among the best, promptest and most friendly I ever had in SL. There are not many creators who provide their customers with that much help and support.
To sum it up, if you have problems there are the notecards, her group and her kind self to help you out. What else do you need?
There simply is no need to bitch around. And I repeat, if you are too stupid and/or lazy to read IT IS YOUR OWN FAULT, not Daris. And even then I’m quite sure Dari would help you out if you’d just ask her nicely and don’t start threatening her with lawsuits or bitch around.
Daris products are among the best scripted and most sturdy I have. And my inventory is full of stuff. And even if there is something wrong with one of the products, think about all the time and work that went into scripting and building them. Products as complex as the collars with all their scripts, for example, can always have some minor bugs. Look at computer software. It’s totally normal to update new software more than once after release. And I know for a fact that Dari updates her products as soon as she’s found a bug and has it corrected. No biggie if you ask me. And, of course, there’s SL, too. How many products were broken because the Lindens have fucked something up with another SL-update?? You can’t blame Dari for the Lindens inability to provide us all with a stable and bug-free platform. How is she supposed to work and provide us with bug-free products when every few weeks there are new problems in SL? That’s not Daris problem. Bitching to her and threatening her won’t help you in the slightest.
GROW UP, GET MATURE or get another hobby!
But sadly all my ranting won’t help. Dari’s closing her shop and we will loose one the most talented creators for D/s equipment in SL. At least Dari will stay in SL and try to have actually some fun again. That’s why we’re all here. It’s a game and should be enjoyable and fun. For Dari it stopped being fun and I can understand why she closes her shop. It would be really sad, if we’d have forced her out of SL because some of us are stupid, self-centered assholes. I hope Dari will soon be able to have fun and enjoy her second life again. Even if we loose her as a creator, we will still have her as a valued member of SL’s D/s-community. I wish Dari all the very best in her future second life, may she enjoy it and get well again soon.
There are many good creators in SL, but there are only four I truly adore. Four people I know I can buy everything they create and I’m absolutely going to love it. These are Darien Caldwell, Marine Kelley, Ariel Erlanger and Julia Faulkland (Well...with Sable and her helmet there is hope for another shining star on SLs creative horizon). One of them is forced out of business now by the very people she did everything to have a better SL-experience by providing us with her superb products. I just hope some people grow up now and learn from their own mistakes, but somehow I doubt it.
Dari, I wish you all the best. May you soon be able to have fun here again and try to ignore all those ignorant assholes making your life so much harder.

Kathi

p.s. Inara Pey also wrote a nice article about this on her blog

/me stops ranting now and rushes back to SL to stock up on Dariens collar-scripts before they’re gone

Anna

Well, I know, I don't speak much about my SL-friends or family here on this blog, mostly because I think this is just too private to share. Well, I know it sounds totally stupid after writing so much about me, bisecting my feelings and talking about all the emotions and my turmoil during the Banishment, but sharing my friends and family with everybody feels just a bit wrong. It's no longer just about me, but how I feel to certain persons in SL.
But apart from my little sister Alizee there is just this one, special person for me who makes my life so great and wonderful and full of joy. I need to talk about her, because without her I am just no longer complete.
Her name is AnnaMarie, or just Anna. We've met only a few weeks ago. Two weeks before I started my Banishment. We've met at the Sub Conscious store where I just bought the Dental Gag to treat myself for being such a good girl. ;) And there was this cute girl kneeling at the feet of a Domme. She asked me about the gag and I just had to show her and the Mistress the gag and it's functions. We began to chat and I don't know how, but at one point the cutie at her feet and I totally forgot about the Domme and chatted in IM about this and that, editing collars, using different scripts for the collars and god knows what else. That's how I got to know Anna. The moment she approached me was the turning point for my SL.
Before we departed she offered me friendship and the next few days we've met more and more often. Our conversations became a part of my SL-experience I really enjoyed, but only during my time in Banishment I discovered how much I started to enjoy her company, how much I began to count on our daily chats, how much I missed her and how close we became in only a few days. When I suddenly couldn't talk to her and enjoy her company I realized how much an important part of my SL Anna became.
After my time in the Banesuit we enjoyed more and more time together, became nearly inseparable. Whatever we did - talking, shopping, exploring SL, or just being crazy and doing something stupid - we did it together and I had much more fun than in all my month in SL before. She introduced me to Miss Sarja, another great friend of mine, but that's another blog post.
Something happened to me that I never ever believed possible for me in SL. I fell in love. Totally, happily and completely in love. I always was somebody who believed falling in love in a virtual world would be stupid and just something that could never, would never happen to herself. But then there came this cutie, entered my live and took over my heart and soul. I still can't believe my luck. Meeting Anna is the best that happened to me in SL.
Now she is away for about ten days, her RL-work called her away from my side. She's only gone one day now and I feel this terrible void in my life. I already miss her, hell, I miss her the minute I log out of SL and start counting the seconds till we see each other again. Being without her for ten days will be pure hell for both of us. I miss talking with her; I miss her intelligent, incredibly cute, saucy and lovely personality; I miss cuddling with her on my settee, shopping with her or just having fun and exploring SL together.
I love you Anna, I miss you terribly, come back soon my love. But most of all have a save journey and come back healthy and happy.


Your Heart is my Home...
Warm, Cozy and Nice!
It's the only Place
I want to be in
Morning
Noon and Night!

I Love you Anna!

Sables helmet ... a dream come true for Banes

Yesterday I got a wonderful present. The amazing and wonderful Sable approached me and asked me to help her beta test a new helmet she invented for Banesuits. And let me tell you, this helmet is fantastic, it's great and wonderful and comes with everything a Bane can only hope/fear. When I first put it on, I already was in love with it. It looks great, just like I always imagined the helmet would look like after reading the short story. You can modify it by open the visor, close it, adjust the transparency of it or remove/reattach a filter. You can name the Bane (numbers from 1000 to 9999), set an owner of course, timelock it yourself, force the Bane into mouselook or blind her/him. The HUD the helmet attaches automatically to your screen makes you see the world in a yellowish color and gives you that out of the world, detached from the world feeling described in Evil Dollys story Eudeamon. On the lower left part of the HUD is a radar telling you how near the Bane is to other humans and/or Banes and punishes the poor Bane if it is too near to other people. The punishment consists of a static sound and a flashing HUD, something you really don't want to see too much and it can prolong the sentence of the Bane. The helmet supports all the RL-scripts from the newest version. There's so much more in it and I'm going to give this perfect helmet an in depth analysis when I had enough time to play with it. For now I can say, this is exactly what I wanted to have when I've tried my own Banishment a few weeks ago and I'm tempted now to do a bit more than just beta-test it. ;)
Sable, you are great, I just loooove you for giving me this great toy to play with. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.

/me hops excitedly up and down and hurries back to SL to play with her newest toy


Here you can see me with the helmet at Pain Toys (if you haven't been there, visit it. It's a warehouse stuffed with vendors from most of my fav designers. Real Restraint, Ariel Erlanger, Fairlight, PoC & Omega, just to name a few of them). On the screenie I don't wear a catsuit, it's one of the new PoC-latex-skins. It looks wonderful with the helmet and it doesn't leave a gap between the helmet and your neck like an ordinary catsuit would. And it's from PoC, you're not going to find better latex for your Bane.


Here you can see the helmet a bit better.





And last but not least the HUD with it's yellow overlay and in the lower left corner you can see the green radar, telling you if you're okay or too near to other people and/or Banes.



ADDED:
Maybe you'll notice that I don't wear cuffs, mittens, an armbinder or similar restraints. It's just not necessary any more with the helmet, it has everything in it a Bane needs and this way the Bane looks much more like the Banes described in Eudeamon. You are totally controlled and restrained by your helmet, you're encapsulated in your own private prison and there just isn't any need for more restraints. And in my opinion the Bane looks much more beautiful in the sobriety of her latex-clad skin and helmet.
One feature I totally forgot to mention is the Vox device the owner can attach to her/himself. The vox serves as a communication device allowing communication with the Bane in times of need.

Here you can see the helmet with attached filter and the visor with 40% of transparency. You can see on the picture the white lenses I use as covers for my eyes during the time I am locked in my suit. Again I have to thank Sable, because she gave me the white contacts for my eyes.

Kathi's back

I’m sorry; I’ve got to apologize again. I’m a bit late with my Saturday-report. But I had just so much more on my mind before going to bed yesterday, I hope you understand.
My last day in isolation felt extremely long. Every minute seemed to last at least an hour. I couldn’t wait to see my friends again. When my custodian ordered me back to the lab in the early evening I obeyed at once. We role-played my release and it was as exciting as my maintenance was. When my blindfold was unlocked and removed and I was able to see again for the first time this week it was nearly shocking. I’ve gotten so used to the restrictions of the HUD, even without windlight SL looked beautiful. When my lab-tech removed the gag and I was allowed to speak again, I wasn’t really easy to stop babbling and concentrate on the rp again. But Zoe worked so hard to prepare everything and did such a great work as my custodian and lab-tech, I just had to go on with the role-play. When we were finished we had a long private discussion about our experiences and how we both felt during my Banishment.
I’m not going to post about our discussion or Zoe's feelings and experiences here. I hope she’ll do this herself soon, but I can reveal that, although she enjoyed being my custodian very much and had loads of fun with her Bane, it wasn’t easy for her either. I asked her to do this for me, because she’s not only one of my best friends , but because I was sure she could do this to me without going soft on me or without budging whatever I may say or feel until I safeword. She’s a great, harsh and cruel Domme, one of the best I know, but sometimes she wasn’t really sure how far she could go.
I can say for myself, that I’m not going into Banishment very soon again. My curiosity is satisfied and until Marine is finished with her Banishment Project, I’ll most likely stay away from my Banesuit. I’m quite sure the next few days/weeks I’ll wear casual clothes and stay away from latex. This was the toughest stuff I’ve done in SL so far, from a mental and emotional point of view, an extremely harsh experience, but at the same time a very rewarding one. I wouldn’t miss one second of it, but I really have to warn everyone who thinks about trying this. Think about it, it’s extremely hard and you’ll have to be emotionally very, very strong. Don’t do this if you’re not sure you can cope with the emotional agonies you’ll have to go through. AND even if you’re sure you want to do this, you’ll need somebody who’s strong enough to be your custodian during your isolation.
Anyway, when Marine is finished with her Project, I’m quite sure I’ll have to do this again, I still haven’t found my Eudemon (well, I have, but not in rp and we couldn’t experience the evolution form custodian to Eudeamon in rp) and I want to know how Marines version of the Banishment feels.
Hmm….sorry, got a bit distracted from my diary. When we were finished with our discussion we went home to celebrate my release with my friends and have some fun. It was a wonderful, long night, we all had much to discuss and we all were happy to be together again. I was glad to get to know, that Zoe and my friends stayed in close contact and that Zoe told them what happened during my Banishment. My poor custodian had to take much blame from my friends during that time. ;) I’m glad I’ve chosen her to take care of me. And my fiends read my blog. (So good to know! Hey you jerks; you could have at least posted something nice and encouraging here!) But that didn’t save me from having to tell my story again. It wasn’t a happy story and we all are happy that it’s over now. We chatted and had fun, cuddled and it was one of the best parties I had in SL. I’m sure the next week I won’t have much time, just soooo much more to discuss. ;)

Kathi

Another day, another maintenance

Sorry, I’m a bit late with my Friday report, but I was just too tired yesterday to write my diary before going to bed.
K-47713s day began with another maintenance. It was the same long and humiliating process. After getting my waste disposed, cleaned, thoroughly inspected and probed I was fed again through my digestive tract…humiliating! Zoe rped it all again and she was even better than last time. We both had much fun and enjoyed the whole procedure very much. The maintenance took even longer, but not long enough for my taste. I could have done that the whole day. But of course that wouldn’t be much of an isolation now, would it? At last, I was released and just when I left the lab, my lab-tech called after me and said: “Wait, K-47713!” I just thought “Oh crap…not again, what did I do wrong now???” But wait, I’ve been a good, obedient Bane. I couldn’t have done something wrong, she’s not going to extend my sentence, is she?? I turned and looked at her and she patted me on my head and just said: “Well done, K-47713. We analyzed your custodians records and if you keep up the good work, we’ll see each other soon again when I have to remove your suit. You can go now, K-47713.” I hurried out of the lab, grinning from ear to ear. Now it was official, if I can refrain from making more mistakes I’ll be free tomorrow evening. Can’t wait to see her again when she’s going to release me from my Banesuit. Can’t wait to see my other friends again, have some nice, long conversations and cuddle the whole evening with this scary and evil little lab-tech I’ve met during my isolation. ;)
Meeting Zoe and having the maintenance was fun and I really wouldn’t miss it, but there’s one downside to it. After having so much fun and enjoying the presence of Zoe, accepting the loneliness and isolation again is even harder than before. It helped to know that there’s only one day left, but even that day can be really, really long. I still can’t stand to be around people, seeing them having fun makes my angry and envious, seeing my friends online makes me feel lonelier. I went back to visiting some really nice sims. I’m glad it’s soon over, I’m going out of interesting locations now. But this is one of the acceptable things of the isolation. I’ve seen so many great and interesting sims, when I’m back from my Banishment and can see again without blindfold-HUD, I’ll have pay these sims another visit with my windlight-client.
I logged out after one of my better days during Banishment. I had fun and there’s a light at the end of the tunnel now. And I’m quite sure it’s the end of the tunnel and not a train coming my way. One more day and no more mistakes and Kathi will be back.

K-47713

Booooring.........

Today can be summed up pretty fast: booooring! The day was uneventful, I was running around, feeling lonely, trying to avoid humans.
My custodian wasn’t online very much today. She was meeting with some RL-friends and warned me yesterday that she wouldn’t be able to watch me as closely today. So without my custodian I could visit every sim I wanted, not needing to evade crowds. But no, I’m a well trained Bane and learned from my mistakes yesterday. And to say the truth, I wasn’t sure if my keyholder wouldn’t log in without letting me know about it, just to make some sudden scan of the area. Like I said yesterday, I’m doing everything possible to avoid further demerits. From now on K-47713 is a well trained, rule abiding Bane.
But it wasn’t really hard for me to avoid humans. Seeing them having fun together makes me just envious and angry now. Why are they allowed to have fun when I’m stuck in this damned suit, and bored to death??? I don’t know them, and I don’t know what they talk, if they have fun at all, but every time I see people together I get envious. I even start hating them for being able to have a chat or interact with each other. This life of constant boredom and isolation really is beginning to take its toll now. I’m glad it’s only two more days. I can’t wait to get rid of this suit and meet all my friends again and have fun and long conversations with them.
Without my custodian it’s not nearly as fun and interesting now and it’s not really challenging when I’m not monitored. And I was a bit surprised with myself for concentrating all my anger and frustration at people I don’t even know. Well, I know I don’t hate them; they are just convenient targets for my frustration. I think that’s just normal, to try to vent your frustration, so I’m not bothering myself too much about it. I called it a day after a few hours and I just hope it’s more fun tomorrow. I can’t wait to see the scary ideas the evil brain of my keyholder has in store for me tomorrow. That’s something I’m really going to miss when I’m free again.

K-47713

New Day, New Horrors

New day, new horrors. After yesterday I was nearly convinced that it can’t get worse. I was still ashamed for aiming all my anger and despair at my custodian and being totally wrong with it. I was happy that I was wrong, but I still can’t get how I ever could think she didn’t care about me anymore. The night wasn’t very relaxing. I was still too shaken and an emotional mess to sleep very much. I pondered half the night about my isolation, my feelings and emotions and was still sleepy when I had to get up for work. Not that big a problem, it was a quiet day at work. When I was back at home, I logged in again, and promised me that I’d keep my emotions in check today. My custodian was already online. I was quite surprised about that. It was early for her. And soon I got some more or less pleasant surprises. I was on one of my trips when I discovered that she learned to use her spy remote. My custodian told me that I didn’t keep enough distance to other human beings and that I should get the hell away from them. Great idea. I liked the feeling of being more closely overseen by my custodian and I didn’t mind keeping some distance from other people. Not that I could interact with them anyway. So I’ve tried to keep my distance but from time to time, mostly after teleporting to another sim and rematerializing at a crowded entry point I was unable to keep my distance at once. My keyholder loved to scan the area around me right after I’ve teleported and so I got more than just one messages from my custodian. Creepy computer thing in my brain…protocol violations my ass…I’m not responsible for rematerializing in the midst of a crowd!
After about 2 hours my custodian told me I needed my maintenance. And now I was in for a reall surprise. I got a TP from my custodian and when I arrived at my destination I was in a sterile hospital room with a sick-bed, some unidentifiable computer equipment and a gyn-chair. She built that room especially fro me!! I felt so happy; this was the best moment I had in SL for the whole week. My keyholder was dressed in a white lab-coat and strapped me to the chair, disposed all the waste I produced during my isolation, made some probes and checked the waste reclamation unit, food was pumped through a tube that passed through my digestive tract into my stomach, she did some more probes and checked my custodian. She role-played the whole maintenance with me and during all that time I wasn’t allowed to speak more than just a few sentences with the lab-tech who did my check-up. My maintenance took longer than one and a half hours and it was the best and craziest experience I had since a very long time. She made such a fuss about my well-being and some fine-tuning of my custodian. It was the most embarrassing, most thorough and most enjoyable medical examination I ever had. ;) I had a great evening, I must admit that, but then she dismissed me with the words: “K-47713, during the maintenance your custodians protocol violation reports were analyzed and demerits assigned. Your sentence was extended by another month (= 1 additional day). Try harder, K-47713.” Ughhh…….!! Well, attacking the lab-tech, who was intelligent enough to lock the door behind me, would most likely get me a much longer sentence so I just stomped out of the building and went to my good old park to wallow in self-pity again. I didn’t try to have an ooc-chat with my custodian. I needed to figure some things out for myself now. I sat down on my bench and really started thinking about my isolation. Is this really worth all the trouble? Why did I do this again?? Is my keyholder gone completely nuts now??? Will I be able to finish this???? All this was on my mind and kept me thinking and contemplating for some time. I don’t really need to say, that the thought of being isolated and without my friends for one more day made me swallow sad. I became angry at my keyholder, why did she do this? Great idea…..let’s allow K-47713 to have some fun and enjoy her isolation for one and a half hour, then kick her in her latex-clad bum! I knew my keyholder was scary and could be damn cruel but this??? Crap…!!! I was hoping to be out of this suit in two days and now it’s one more. I’ll have to wear my suit now till Saturday. But in the end, I realized, there’s nobody else to blame but me. I urged her to read the story; I wanted the experience as close to the story as possible and I am here because I want to be here and because I choose to be here! She just does the best she can to make the experience as real and extreme as possible and at the same time she does everything she can to make it enjoyable for me. She went to all the trouble with the maintenance. She rented the small plot of land, built the little clinic-room and even thought about some interesting and fun role-play for me. I should be thankful and not pissed. I asked her to be my keyholder, because I knew she’d be able to make my isolation as extreme and scary as possible. I knew she’s push my limits and I asked her because of it. I knew she’d be the only one of my friends who could expose me to these situations without getting weak and without feeling enough pity with me to make it easier. She knows me good enough to know my limits – maybe even better than I know them myself. All these thoughts calmed me down a bit and allowed me to assess my situation without anger. And in the end I had to admit, today wasn’t too bad a day. The role-play during my maintenance was great and just enough fun for me to accept the additional day. Although I’m still not getting one bit used to the boredom and the inability to chat with my friends is extremely hard and it gets worse every day. At the moment I’m not really sure I can do this till Saturday, but I’ll try and do my best. Having a working and alert custodian changed the experience just enough to make the experiment interesting again. Now I have some rules I’ve got to stick to, I’ve got to be cautious, because I’m being monitored now and punished for not abiding to the rules. I can’t just do whatever I want. It’s a completely new level of Banishment. No, in fact, only now it is Banishment and not only isolation. My new goal in life: no more demerits. I’ve got a new challenge, and I’ll do everything humanly possible to achieve my aim. I am and ever was an extremely goal oriented person; this may just be enough of a challenge now to keep me going. To sum this day up, it was another emotional rollercoaster-ride for me. It had some ups, a few downs, all in all it wasn’t too bad a day for K-47713. I had enough from sitting alone on my bench, pitying myself. I got up and promised myself to do better from now on, be stronger. I know, I know, tomorrow I'm back on my bench, but let me at least keep my illusions for a few hours. ;) So I went back exploring this wonderful world again, hoping to find something interesting enough to distract me for a few hours.
Before going to bed, I had another ooc-chat with my (extremely worried) keyholder/custodian. She wanted to know how I'm doing. And I told her everything. I told her about every little thought that crossed my mind after I got my extended sentence. When I was finished, she was happy. Not only because I really appreciated what she did for me, or because she did not go too far, I think what made her happy most of all was her pride in my willingness to go on, to keep going, that she assessed me correctly and that I’m trusting her enough to keep on going, to allow her to control me completely.

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